Q I am an American revert for 8 years. I found such beauty and peace in Islam. My soul had such peace. I married a born Muslim from Algeria and brought him here on k1 visa. I wanted a husband to share my life and teach me. He told me he would love me forever and we meet in Jannah.

We have been married for 6 years and he has destroyed my life. He cheated on me from day one and is now in another city with another woman for a week now. Since meeting him, I have moved away from Islam. He will not divorce me but will not stay with me. I have prayed and prayed for guidance, I have prayed to help my husband, I have prayed for strength in my faith.

I am ashamed to say I feel as if Allah is punishing me, ignoring me. Please understand I say no bad for Allah, I just feel he is not listening to me. 2 days ago I tried to commit suicide and it scared me to my core. After that experience I know I want to live, but how do I get back to my true love of Islam. How do I get back to feeling the love and peace I once felt for Islam?