I Was Molested by My Uncle

02 December, 2018
Q Assalamualaikum.

I would like to ask this question and it took a lot of courage to. This has been a cause of many family fights.

I was molested by my uncle (father’s brother) at the age of 12. I was shocked but I thought this is how adults express love. From what I hear from my mother, he has done this before when I was as little as 2 years old. My mother had informed my father, but he brushed it off with a warning. When my mother informed my father again when I was 12, he tried to suppress the issue. Family ties were strained. Everyone in my father’s side of the family refused to believe me and accused me of lying. Apparently, my uncle had sworn on the Quran (literally) that he had done no such thing.

I am 27 years old now, but that incident still haunts me. I try to forget it but it’s hard because my father regularly talks to his brother and family members. In fact, that said uncle even came on EID to our house. I have multiple times told my family how this affects me, but they ask me not to be dramatic and forget these things. I started concentrating on other things and keeping busy.

Now my father forces me to talk to his family and make acquaintance. I have tried in the past, but they are very rude to me and almost blame me for the incident. I have said the same to my father, but he refuses to believe why they are rude to only me.

Please help with a supplication which can help my situation. Also, Islamically what should I do about this situation? Since I am 27, I sometimes feel, it is right to get married and move out so that I don’t have to face my father’s family and that uncle. Is it right to think this way? Please help me. I am very depressed, and I am trying to do the right thing.

Answer


In this counseling answer:

• Under no circumstances is it acceptable to force you into being around this man.

• If you have a genuine interest in someone for marriage for more than just an escape plan then it is a great option to consider.

• It is good to identify at least 3 positive coping skills you can employ when triggered. Such as creating artwork, journaling, trying new recipes or going for a walk in a favorite location. Think about what activities help you reign in your emotions and feel better.

• It is through Allah (SWT) that we can find healing in the warmth and light of our connection to the Quran, read it with an open heart and let it console you.


Assalamualaikum sister,

It took a lot of courage to write in and express such a painful topic. Thank you for trusting us with the opportunity to provide guidance.

It is my understanding you experienced molestation by your uncle from your toddler years and into adolescence. Your family is dismissive of what happened to the extent that they accuse you of somehow being accountable for what he did to you. I hope you realize they are 100% wrong and they will be held accountable for their role in your trauma.

Their actions (or lack thereof) cause you to experience those same feelings of helplessness, depression and that the people who were supposed to protect you are the ones you need protection from.

Dear Sister, I understand and empathize with your situation on a deeper level than you know. Please know you are never alone, and you are so strong, Inshallah you will rise above all of this.

“Fear not. Indeed, I am with you both; I hear and I see.” [Quran 20:46]

Forced Visitation

Under no circumstances is it acceptable to force you into being around this man. He sexually abuses children, he is a monster and you are most likely not the only one he has hurt nor will you be the last. You might be the only one who was strong enough to say something.

I know this won’t be easy, but I advise refusing to be around him and making it clear if he is allowed to be present then you will not. Your mother is apparently a witness as she knew about him doing it when you were only 2 years old. Try to ask your mother to support you in this act, she tried to advocate for you before, she might again.

Marriage

You asked about getting married to move out and escape this situation. You are at a great age for marriage, but the decision to marry should not be made out of desperation and despair. It should be a choice you want to make, not a choice you have to make.

That being said, if you have a genuine interest in someone for marriage for more than just an escape plan then it is a great option to consider. This home environment is toxic and contributing to your depression, and a change of scenery with a supportive household could really help inshallah.


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I need to highlight something, you have experienced a lot of trauma. It is advisable to make sure you are ready emotionally for marriage before taking that step and select someone you can feel safe with and confide in.

To be clear, if you only want marriage to escape your home then you may end up in a bad marriage that only increases your pain.

Coping Skills and Self-Talk

You mentioned keeping yourself busy and concentrating on other things. It is good to identify at least 3 positive coping skills you can employ when triggered. Such as creating artwork, journaling, trying new recipes or going for a walk in a favorite location. Think about what activities help you reign in your emotions and feel better.

Your emotions, thoughts and actions are all linked. This means we can work on altering those negative emotions by changing your thoughts and actions. I would like you to get a pen and paper, let yourself feel those painful emotions and take notice of your thoughts. Write those hurtful thoughts down on paper. For example, someone in your situation may think “no one cares, I’m weak”.

Once you have identified some of your negative thoughts it is time to debate them. Using the same example, we would write down a rational thought to debate the painful one. Such as, “they love me, but they are oppressed by culture and afraid to do the right thing, I am stronger than them in this and will not tolerate any more abuse”.

Let’s extend this idea of debating your painful thoughts on paper and try to practice this in real time. If something triggers those painful memories or feelings, you can use the same concept except do it in your mind. Talk to yourself internally during difficult moments while seeking refuge in Allah (Swt).

Forgiveness

This one is easier said than done but bear in mind it is for you and Allah (SWT) not for him. When we hold onto our past traumas and let the scars reopen, we are giving power to the pain allowing it to continuously hurt us. Learning to forgive does not mean you forget; does not mean you condone and does not mean you have to be friendly with him. It simply means you let go of it and trust in Allah (SWT) to handle it. Remember Sister, Allah (SWT) will hold to account those that spread evil and corruption.

“and seek help through patience and prayer, and indeed, it is difficult except for the humbly submissive [to Allah]” [Quran 2:45]

This also means forgiving the rest of your family. Try to sit down with your mother and ask her if the family would consider counseling. Having a mediator increases accountability for what is said and helps keep the situation calm. Forgiveness is a struggle, but perhaps that is part of the reason forgiveness and mercy is so highlighted in Islam.

Duaas

You asked about specific duaas (supplications) for your situation. Sister, speak from the heart. You can say duaa in whatever language you like, whenever you like and for whatever you like provided it is appropriate.

The Prophet () used to say, “O Allah! I seek refuge with You from worry and grief, from incapacity and laziness, from cowardice and miserliness, from being heavily in debt and from being overpowered by (other) men.” [Bukhari]

 Final Thoughts

You took a brave step writing into us, keep on this path of healing Sister and inshallah it will get easier.

  • Continue to make duaa
  • Be aware of your negative thoughts and debate them
  • Initiate getting your parents into counseling with you or at least sitting down talking honestly. Consider someone to advocate for you as a mediator if without a counselor
  • Forgive for yourself and Allah (SWT)
  • Self-advocate for your right not to be exposed to this man

Please only seek out a marriage if you truly want to be married and are ready for this commitment; your marriage should be a celebration, not a rescue operation. It is through Allah (SWT) that we can find healing in the warmth and light of our connection to the Quran, read it with an open heart and let it console you.

May Allah (SWT) heal your heart, guide your family and protect you.

Ameen.

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About Monique Hassan
Monique Hassan graduated with honors in 2012 with her BSc in Psychology and a minor in Biology and is certified in Crisis Prevention and Intervention. She has years of professional as well as personal experience with trauma, relationship struggles, substance abuse, identifying coping skills, conflict resolution, community outreach, and overall mental health concerns. She is a professional writer specialized in Islamic Psychology and Behavioral Health. She is also a revert who took her shahada in 2015, Alhamdulillah. You can contact Sister Monique Hassan via her website "MoniqueHassan.com"